All of Me - John Legend
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
this this one of those audio posts where i reblogged even before i listened to it cuz i knew it was going to be amazing
I went back and revisited my world literature paper and holy shit it sucks ass. It’s crazy to actually SEE how much I’ve changed as a writer.
I guess I really did “find my writer’s voice.”
I know I rarely post much about my relationship on this blog, but today was a good day~ I went out with Andrew for a few hours! I feel like it’s been a while since we’ve gotten a lot of time together so our date was especially nice. Also he’d just gotten back from vacation so it was nice having a day over break to hang out before all the school work piles up again next week.
Basically, we ate some mexican food and just hung out. It was really chill and fun! Sounds like a perfect date to me~
The rest of the day was enjoyable too with picking up Kristine and Alex and then heading over to David’s birthday party. Today was just good~ It’s a great way to end my break!
OH- and apparently, I was driving too fast. 45 mph was crazy fast.
Did you have fee waivers?! That’s a lot of money for applications..
Yeah, I had a couple of free applications! But still, it was a lot of money for me to dish out because it was only two of them that were free…
"Learn to forgive…yourself first.
Guilt should be a temporary tool with which to define wrongdoing, not a permanent one for self-flagellation
Learn to forgive…others often.
Judgment should be a tool with which to evaluate a situation, not to attack another’s character
Learn to forgive…circumstances.
Blame should be a tool with which to put reality into perspective, not to excuse ourselves from responsibility”
Aghhh yeah, @runningfromperfection. My heart was beating so fast. Ahhh I hope you’re able to recollect yourself :(
@twoheadedboyy I’ll try! I look presentable even though I haven’t taken a shower today LOL
I’m too nervous to ring the doorbell… I’m standing outside my aunts house because the thought of seeing all my family is making my heart pound.
I woke up feeling worse. Even in my dreams I’m still the worst one on the line.
I can’t play for shit.Last night, I picked up the cymbals to play and remembered why I hated myself last season. I got really embarrassed over my poor sound after the first couple crashes while the people auditioning we’re sitting down. I don’t know why I kept on playing. It’s not like I’m getting any better. I feel like whoever gets cut will still probably play better than me.
I thought it wasn’t messing with my head because I didn’t think too much of it after it happened, but it came back and bit me in the ass.
Today, after school, I was accused of not being involved in the club I’m in and following the club presidents around to reap the benefits of being part of the event. She essentially said that I had no real value or worth in the club and that I’m just taking credit for what the presidents are doing.
I really meant it when I said I was “shot in the values.” What values do I even have anymore? At that time, I felt like I had nothing worth showing. I felt like a fucking shadow, always there but incapable of being of use.
Hearing that after being told that my art work wouldn’t pass with the IB in fourth period and after the fact that when I asked for advice, one of the first things that came up was throwing my art away really fucked with my head.
I know I’m not completely worthless, but really, how much value do I have? How much of a difference do I really make? It’s days like these that make me question my purpose in the world. Do I really not add to any discussion or conversation or friendship or club?
Am I really “just there?”